Woke this morning to God… ‘talking’ to me like ‘I Was Awake.!!! LOLOLOL… and here is What We Chatted about… actually… God Chatted… I drank coffee…

The ‘moment’ (when beLIEving I was dying)… I took on the ‘Peace’ of God Above All else… No exceptions…and these are some of the stories… I ‘stopped talking about’… while I still ‘suffered from them’…

The Peace of God Above ‘a story of foreclosure’,

The Peace of God Above ‘stories of cancer OR death’,

The Peace of God Above ‘those ‘suffering’ in the middle east’…

or ‘any story’…

A Flip occurred… AND ‘this process’ took Me into the Most Compassionate Heart… that I ever Knew existed.

For ‘me’… this ‘moment’ of True Resurrection, came With really getting… “I would no longer ‘buy into’ what my eyes were ‘focusing’ on… and the ‘fearful story.  All ‘fearful’ stories are ‘surface cover’ for ‘masses’ of ‘support fear stories’ just behind ‘one’ fearfulll thought… the Longer ‘I’ ‘focused’ on the ‘cancer’… or the ‘forclosure’… ‘Not happy’ stories Filled my mind…

So there was an ongoing Commitment to See the Peace of God… I would repeat this several times a Day. A ‘habit’ that is Now Very Easy!

Initially…saying I Want the Peace of God Above All Else… would ‘break some ‘icky’ ‘thinking string’ I was ‘thinking’…(lololol)…

AND… ‘I Found’… ‘talking’. ‘or ‘allowing’ myself to ‘think’ ‘thoughts of ‘cancer’ or ‘foreclosure’… was moving further and further away from the Peace of God. NOW… after Much Clearing of ‘beLIEfs’… I can talk ‘extensively’ about any ‘medical’/’health’ beLIEf … and Laugh My Way through it… and Initially in ‘turning my mind (the Titanic) back to Safe Harbor (lolololo)… I had to ‘practice’ ‘retraining my mind to ‘Think’… WITH GOD… WITH LOVE….

Initially ‘this idea’ seemed not only Quite Insane…’I’ Could not See ‘how to do this?’…

One ‘fucking’ ‘thought’ at a time…

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

And with this morning Chat With God… God ‘reminded me of a memory’ that so illustrates… the Creative Insanity of the Horizontal Mind… and Setting it Ultimately Free!!

In 1993, I was in an East African refugee camp… and was appalled by ‘man’s inhumanity to man’… actually… I was ‘focused’ on ‘these’ thoughts…

At this time in ‘my spiritual process’… I was taking advisement from a Beauty Full Soul, Kit… Besides being a ‘Holy Soul’… He had an extensive background in ‘CIA Deprogramming Skills’. Nothing like a little ‘spiritual deprogramming’… LOLOL..  ‘Kit’ will be referred to later…

So upon returning to the states… I ‘thought’… I would ‘throw’ a dinner party for about 25 friends. And I LOVED (‘back’ then) to throw “Parties With a Purpose”….

So without telling ‘my guests’… I made them all one meal…based on a week of rations that a refugee receives… (lolo… amazing ‘I’ had any friends)…

So the meal was extravagant by ‘refugee’ standards… cole slaw, tortilla, beans and water optional. The ‘dinner’ conversation… depressing… and the ‘scarey part’… I was ‘proud’ of myself… (I appear to be forgiving my self as I type this..lol)

And all the thoughts I was holding about ‘man’s inhumanity to man’ were then ‘projected in a ‘room of many’… ‘my ego version of’… Shout it from the Mountaintops!!! Share the Depression…

Now I Shared this ‘proudly to Kit’… and He responded by saying… “at this point in your ‘spiritual education’… Stop Sharing Anything”.

Really… he said this… I ‘felt crushed’… LOLOLOLOLO AND I SO GET THIS NOW… (and when ‘we ended’ our ‘teacher/student’ relationship… He Told me that ‘Now’… I had Much to Share…’

I only had ‘Sharable Thoughts’… when I quit making Others Wrong (man’s inhumanity to man… )   I ‘thought’ I was ‘going to help’ a lot of ‘people’, informing them of the ‘refugee horrors’…   God was not responsible for that ‘meal’ or ‘the conversation’… My small fearful mind was in charge of entertainment that night!!! lolo

Generating ‘thoughts’ should ONLY BE DONE THROUGH LOVE… not the ‘fear’ ‘I’ was ‘holding’ of ‘man’s inhumanity to man’…

So this Morning God and I Chatted about ‘these images’ With Love… and NOW I Do have Something to SHARE… I LOVE ALL… All My Projections ‘forgiven’…My Heart Just Flows…AND You can ‘Visualize’ Me Screaming ‘this’ from the Mountaintops!!!

Totally… amen!