Holy Spirit is Swift with Clearings as I become more adept at the Process of Loving All… So … HS and I have been staying very Close… Lots of Moments Linked With God. And I ‘thought’ the process was to ‘Clear to go back’, and to Join With Others at the Monastery … and again… Awakening is NEVER what ‘I think will happen’…lolol

and … Again… God Loves it when ‘I plan anything’…

So since I have been back from the Monastery… ‘my building’ has been experiencing ‘sewer back ups’….lolo… just my projection and reflection… ‘My metaphors are so literal’…

So today… I was told… that it will be a larger situation to Clear… involving trenching and sewer permits being pulled and the street being dug up… all designed by and for me to Awake.

So ‘my process’… ‘Holy Spirit, Help Me See this Differently’… (with God these days… the answer happens often as I am asking the question)….

Holy Spirit informed ‘me’… So the ‘fear’ that has been lingering since ‘committing to the Monastery’… is ‘outwardly looking like: money, building rent or sale, come/go, run/stay, up/down…. Yada yada yada…

I so get… any little fear full thought like… ‘oh no’… will take me further from the Truth. So I am staying Willing to SEE… and Willing to not to be right… Willing to Hear the Voice of God… and ‘Willing to follow instructions’..

So this ‘lesson continues’… I turn All of this over to God to See Differently…

So it’s Friday, and I called my plumber, Tom. Tom and I have been Good Friends for years… following each others passage through ‘life’ and ‘terminal cancer’… together.  He has also given up ‘doctors’… and is still here… He was ‘terminally diagnosed’ ten years ago.

So in addition to this… We Both came to understand that the only path that we are really here to follow… is to Wake Up to God… Wake Up to Loving ALL… never an exception.

So I called the office… Tom has retired and his sons now run the business… so I was completely surprised when Tom answered the phone. I told him I wanted to get on the schedule for next week…

As I was talking about the ‘plumbing stuff… I heard Holy Spirit… “Open to Tom… We can Use Him to Assist YOU.”

So I just told Tom the Truth… All of this ‘sewage stuff’… is my fear of ‘Following God’… all the piddly thoughts of ‘not enough money’, ‘not healthy enough’, not a good idea’… all these ‘resistant ideas’… produce ‘sewage’… and I want my Connection With God to Shine…not be blocked… This is why I Needed a Plumber like, Tom.

He Shared With Me as a father to a child… He has been reading the Gospel of Thomas… so we Shared…AND I Heard. It was all about following God’s ‘prompts’ (my word not his)… ‘Lingering with ‘judgmental thoughts’ and not following ‘guidance’… will produce ‘swift recourse’… TRUST GOD FOR ALL NEEDS…

Doubt is ego. I KNOW I Want nothing to interfere with my relationship with Love… With God…so I am producing ‘thoughts’ that reflect my ‘lingering ‘doubt’!!!!!

Geez…

Tom and I were both Clear… that this call was Devinely Guided… I needed to Hear ‘my doubt’… and I did…

And, an angel named ‘Tom’, held my hand for a little moment… I felt God again.

So after scheduling to take care of the sewer Line… I hung up and meditated… Went to God for some further Clearing of ‘doubt’…

omG… I am so laughing… so I am postponing ‘leaving Santa Fe’… for the moment. I so got… ‘gentle’… and ‘No Need to ever ‘rush’ anything’

As with the lesson of ‘allowing the outside world’ to ‘speed by’… I am going at the pace that allows me to be in Joy… I think this is the ‘state of Mindfullness’ that is spoken about in Buddhism.

So I have ‘removed any idea that I Might have about ‘leaving by a certain time’.   I continue to ‘lighten my load’ and am in Joying all moments …  All for My Awakening.

There is a weeklong ‘official Silent Retreat’ at the Monastery, the end of September. A ‘current suggestion’ is to go for that week and stay for two additional weeks…

I feel like a ‘rechargeable battery’…I want another ‘charge’ while I continue to ‘close and Clear ‘my life’ here, as:  Calico, the chiropractor, the course student, the political activist… all the stories of a ‘life well lived’.

AND… no need ‘to rush’… and yet… keep the Love focus’… no matter what and TRUST this process… Love All, no exceptions…‘linger no longer than needed’…

TRUST!

Keep paring down stuff, Loving my puppies like there ‘is no tomorrow’… lolol

So for now… I Am so at Peace… I Join in My Heart… I Join Others Joining in Love… I am so there…

And more will be revealed…