I have a friend… we will call her Linda, to protect the Innocent…. I See Linda regularly in ‘my dream’… She has been ‘playing’ with acim for several years. I do not know if she has ever ‘read’ acim cover to cover… She does the lessons… and ‘applies’ them to her life… She Actively Lives ACIM!!

We have talked ‘extensively’ about the process of acim. She has applied the principles to her ‘employment’… which serves to give her the ‘lessons’, she applies acim to…

At one moment during our conversations… She was Sharing about a ‘drama’ that occurred. An office mate ‘disappeared’… and she assisted in finding the missing person. Then at some point… she got ‘involved’ in the story line… Not only did she assist in ‘finding the person’… she then engaged with, ‘why this woman disappeared’. This is where ego can really take hold if we don’t get to God fast…

A short diversion here… remember… ‘time is not sequential’ … lol

As a catholic girl growing up… my father had a little wooden statue about 12” tall. It sat on his night table his whole life. The ‘Jesus’ was hand painted with the whole cross, bleeding and dripping blood thing… I was ‘repeled’ and ‘attracted’ to the idea of ‘Jesus’s suffering’… it is some martyr thing… I was a ‘good catholic girl (for a short while…lolo)… there was even a few moments of wanting to be a nun… ‘the desire to be a martyr for God’… This ‘desire’ was really unconscious, ‘to me’, until recently…

WOW… what a ‘mind bender’….I am really getting the ‘power’ I have… being able to create ‘suffering’ (or LOVE) .. and this ‘desire’ to be a ‘soldier for God’, a catholic thing called ‘confirmation’…was played out in almost every ‘lesson’ I have given me throughout ‘this life storyline’… To Be a Martyr for God… shit…

Just looked up ‘martyr’ in wikipedia… loll…  martyr complex, sometimes associated with the term victim complex… lolo… As a ‘lover of God’… I took on Martyr… as something that was ‘selfless and good’… omg… another inside out and upside down moment…

With this ‘unconscious beLIEf system’ in place…In 1993… I went to volunteer in an east Africa refugee camp. In the middle of the Sahara Desert… I kept a journal… I remember writing the words… “I came to a war zone to See more suffering on the ‘outside… than I was ‘feeling on the inside’”…!!!

So ‘I took ‘my self’ to a refugee camp in the middle of ‘several wars, in the middle of the fucking sahara desert!… At the time… I had very little access to the concept of ‘taking it to God to See Differently’… and I was attaining deva standing in ‘creative delusional thinking’… as a ‘martyr for god’… a ‘victim For God’….omg…

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Back to Linda!… She and I joke about this idea of ‘creating delusions in the horizontal’… when we recognize our ‘suffering desires’ in our worlds… we say to each other… “No need to go to Africa”… whenever we come across a ‘story line’ in our lives that ‘reflects suffering’ … We Share as part of ‘our Clearings… “At least We don’t have to go to Africa!!!!!!”…

So with the ‘disappeared woman story line’… Linda joked with herself… “At Least I don’t have to go to Africa for this lesson”… and We Laughed…

Peace is an ‘inside’ job… with no need to ‘travel anywhere’… All My suffering can be found in One Source, ‘my mind’… and THANK FULLY… the ‘solution’ is the same… Ask God to See it All Differently!!!!

Just to be Clear… if you find your self going to ‘Africa’, or Anywhere… Just Go and Have a Fabulous Time… Take God With You… to See Through Love Only… whew… glad I got Clear on this One… Big Hug of Love!